Tidbits
A) Thanks for all the support about the sister issue. I feel like I do say terrible things about her, but all of those things are true (from my perspective). Our relationship is not a healthy one. We probably both should be in counseling. Too many hurts over the years, at least on my side. It is just so frustrating. She was out of my life for a long time, but her kids reeled me back in. I never call her, but she calls me several times a week. I wouldn’t go out of my way to visit her, but she lives in my hometown so when I’m there she is there. If she didn’t have kids it would be so much easier to write her off. I fear so much for those kids’ futures. I am pretty pissed that she didn’t tell her friend to back off. She and I will surely have words the next time she calls her. I’m planning to tell her to call her friend if she needs someone to talk to because I have nothing to say. Obviously the friend had to be getting all this information about my evilness from somewhere, so they can all just kiss my ass. It really helps to write about these things, then I can let them go.
B) Brrrrrrr! It’s cold today! I may have to dig out jeans for tomorrow. I’m not complaining. The cooler weather got rid of a lot of the bugs and it was actually nice to stand around outside for hours this afternoon/evening.
C) I had the BEST dinner thanks to my friend Julie. She mentioned baked potatoes the other day and I suddenly had to have a baked potato. I had lots of salt, butter and sour cream to make it super yummy. I hope my pants fit me tomorrow. I had to go to the store specifically for potatoes since I don’t keep them on hand and found a big display of $0.99 cake slices. I love Safeway cake. I got a slab of chocolate fudge cake to share with Erik. So, so, so yummy. There’s no way those pants are going to fit tomorrow.
D) I’ve read three YA/children’s books in the past two days. I love such fast reads. I enjoyed them all, but especially loved The Floating Circus by Tracie Vaughn Zimmer. If you have a chapter book reading boy in your life I would highly recommend it. I’m sure girls would love it as well, but I know it is harder to find books for boys. It’s about an orphan who ends up on a floating circus, mucking out stalls. There’s a lot of stuff about finding your family and loyalty. It also touches upon slavery issues. The ending has a major sad part, but there is also hope that things could turn out ok. It was published in 2008 so I wouldn’t be surprised if it starts getting some awards buzz. What do I know, though? I am not much of an award book reader, though children’s awards typically make more sense to me. They don’t go in for the depression like adult book awards. I hate depressing books.
E) Erik went completely insane this morning and it just about made me insane. He got into this weird feedback loop where he was yelling and I couldn’t even understand what he was saying or what his goal was. First, he didn’t want to leave the house, then it devolved into thirty minutes of him yelling hysterically “No more fun! No more haircuts! No more milk! No more cows! No more TV! No more tables! No more couches! No more mailmen! No more mommy! No more Erik! No more pillows! No more monkeys! No more trees!” And on and on and on. If you can imagine it, he wanted no more of it. I try not to spank him because I don’t think it’s effective, but after all that yelling from slightly afar, he got in my face and started punching my legs so I gave him a whack on the butt. No effect. I gave him a harder whack. No effect. I have him a pretty good smack and it was like I’d hit the reset button. Suddenly he was quiet and tired and just wanted to cuddle. I don’t know what the hell that was all about, but I don’t want anything like that to happen again. He was totally fine the rest of the day and went to the gym with alacrity. If it was the old days I would swear he was possessed by a demon.
F) I didn’t make it to BodyPump today. I wonder why? I did time on the elliptical instead. Since our Tuesday preschool is done, maybe I can make it to BodyPump tomorrow, though the last couple of times lifting the weights has really bothered my c-section scar (yes, it’s been four years). I may have to start taking it easy.