Addiction
Why, oh why, can’t I shut down the laptop and go to sleep? Why must I read millions of carbon copy Project Runway comments and “I was screwed by Mary Kay” posts? Why must I compulsively check my friends list and blogroll? Why can’t I say enough is enough and go to sleep! I need sleep!
It’s a sick, sick addiction. Sometimes I think we should get rid of all our technology and play board games so Erik won’t grow up to be a fat kid stoned on electrons. Then I laugh. If it wasn’t for the wonderful world wide web I’d be stuck in my hometown, single and depressed, trying to avoid the urge to hump anything that crosses my path since the paths of my hometown are filled with drunks and drug abusers. Whoo-hoo! My kind of action. Not.
I can’t believe I just said hump on my blog.
I say hump all the time at home, but I want you, my reading public, to think I’m sophisticated and sweet. You don’t need to know that I am disportionately amused when it looks like Erik is humping the floor. How many times do you think I can work that word into this entry?
Today has not been a banner day. Erik is still a little sick and very whiny, but he refuses to sleep. Mike has had a week sent straight from the bowels of hell and I’ve hardly seen him. I thought I was going to lose all decorum today and throw Erik out the window, so I cleared out his crib instead and let him scream in there for a little while. My friend Karen was over the other day and got quite a sight when she saw the crib. It was filled with Mary Kay crap, an exercise ball, tons of random paperwork and clean laundry. I think we needed to invest in some kind of storage unit instead of a crib. I really do not need to hear from anyone about how great the crying it out method is or how much we’re spoiling him by co-sleeping. It’s a decision that we made and we usually feel good about it and we generally have a happy, healthy baby. To each his own. CIO just does not feel right to me, but maybe it feels right to you. Today I let him CIO for a while and it didn’t do a damned bit of good, but it did prevent me from killing him so I suppose we can give it a positive point for that. When I finally came back in to get him I felt like the biggest heel in the world, but then I decided I couldn’t feel guilt because if I hadn’t set him down and walked away he’d have more problems than a temporarily broken heart and tear streaked face. I finally got him to go to sleep at 7:30 pm. I’d been trying since 3:30, when he first started showing signs of tiredness. Don’t worry. I didn’t let him CIO for a full four hours. That would just be insane.
Hopefully this weekend will be better, but who knows. Part of the hell of the week has been Mike’s schedule. Monday was ok, but he’s had to go out to work from about 11:30 pm to all sorts of weird hours the rest of the week. Today he got out of bed about noon, went to work at 3 pm, came home at 8 pm and took a nap then went back to work at 10. Poor guy. I don’t know how he’s ever going to get his sleep back on schedule.
August 25th, 2006 at 7:46 am
:) You know I have the same troubles at times. I promise myself I’ll go to sleep earlier and rarely do. I normally find a blog post I hadn’t read yet or something else mundane that is so much better than falling alseep.
Ps. Sometimes saying words like “hump” for the world to see is rather liberating!
August 25th, 2006 at 12:19 pm
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August 25th, 2006 at 9:50 pm
I do the same thing. Like right now, I should be sleeping, but I’m catching up on all of my blog reads. Even if I hadn’t missed reading them yesterday, I’d still be up right now, reading blogs and checking myspace.
I was never a fan of CIO either. And co-sleeping was just what seemed natural at my house. We co-slept with all of our children. At one point we had Angel and Sunshine both with us every night since they’re only a little over a year apart.
In fact, my Hoola (he’s 5) still comes in the middle of the night to get in bed with me and my husband if he wakes up. Not every night, just when he wakes up and is feeling scared. Our daughters do too when they’re sick.
September 10th, 2006 at 2:56 pm
Hubbie doesn’t understand how fast time flies when we are catching up on sites, then IM’ing friends. An entire weekend or evening can go by with nothing in “real life” accomplished, but a ton of stuff to thousands on the web thru sites. I find that more fulfilling than watching TV. WSometimes, I’ve walked right past him to check the computer! I’d give up dinner at nite to check and see what’s going on sometimes - but I do like it much better than TV. Still waiting for my laptop and free wireless internet; of course - just to spend more time w/hubbie while he’s watching TV.
laura
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